In My Words by Jocelyn
04 Feb 2018 11:34 AM
Being black in class, it don’t get no harder
Trying to push myself every day to get smarter.
Limited finances, no money in my pockets
Got a family at home supporting me and staving.
I’m like… Why I got to try so hard just to make out?
Emptying myself to be filled with just doubt
How am I supposed to pay attention class
When I’m oppressed by a system and expected to pass?
Tell me why the only empty seat is next me?
Dehumanizing me, ain’t a way to get the best of me.
If you ain’t want me here, then why the hell you keep investing me?
I’m a take your help and then go help the rest of me.
If I don’t even make it for myself,
I’m a make it for that little boy or little girl,
Give them some real exposure to the NSBE World,
'Cause all their role models only poppin pills.
NSBE saved my dreams
Region 5 and we keep reigning supreme
We the vanguard and lead
Aye, and all y’all on my team
Engineering got us t’d
We gon' keep doing our thing
Got the haters releasing steam
Cause Black excellence on fleek
I always knew I would be something
Even though I had to come up from nothing,
See, If I don’t pursue my dreams,
I’m letting down everyone who sacrificed for me.
Why Rosa sit?
And Martin walk?
And why Obama run for me?
What they gave me was more than life
They gave me dreams and endless possibilities
And we still going through it 2018
But I fight to make my dreams come a reality
Graduating with an engineering degree
I made it through a system, that was never made for me
“In my words” this is how I feel being a student of color at a PWI institution feels like. Although, everything I wrote doesn’t reflect my life exactly, it reflects my peers and is relatable to many students of color. My main goal of this piece is to be a reminder that you belong here and we’ve got to keep pushing for success no matter what.